Despair Rises, Roaring

I held those impossible words
And let them
            S
              P  
                 I
               L
                  L
Slipping as easily from pages as
They slid from your lips

Forming blurry pools
Fit to drown

Their poison seeps downward
Slowly
Burning through eyes
And mind
And throat

Catching fire
Within a heart that has wings

It beats itself bloody and
Tears through my chest
Breaking open the flesh

Despair rises, roaring
To peck at my head with the
Hurt

She claws out my eyes
Blinding me with fiction

How I lie to myself to let go
And get through
This loneliness
Must mean victory, Lover

I imagine to forget
Everything